An eventful month ... and an emotional post

I've stopped posting in blog for very long le!! Can see from my last post, its still at hk day 2 which is like not even half completed. But, busy busy lah .. Will continue the hk post if i have time.

Its now almost 2.30am, and I'm gonna sleep soon, but i was jus reading a friend's blog, so suddenly 有感而发, thought of blogging to dump all my feelings out here .. Mayb this can relieve some stress and headaches here.

After the careerfair held last month in NTU, I've now starting to go for interviews and some company orientation. Really hope that I can secure a job before going Taiwan for my grad trip. So far I went interview at EMC with the South Asian Lab director, was suppose to have a 2nd round phone interview jus now with the USA manager, but cos the manager got urgent meeting, so the it had to be postponed. Hiazz ... i anticipate so much for this interview liao .. now gena postponed .. must make me nervous 1 more time leh .. Then last fri I went MHA, gena a panel of 5 interview which include my director during IA, 2 managers and 2 HRs. Seems like they quite confirm wanna hire us liao, the G50 form is already mailed to my house. I'm still waiting for an interview at ST Electronics, which seems like they're taking quite long to process.

Apart from job finding, I've settled my grad trip. 8D 7N Taiwan tour package with Chan Bro. Going with yuzhen. Initially we insisted a free-n-easy trip, but our parents insisted not, saying only 2 gals, not safe. So no choice, we settle on tour package, but the package is quite attractive lah, so i'm very looking forward to the trip. Hiazz ... but because of this trip, bad things happen also. 1 of my aunt last sunday suddenly called me, start reprimanding me for going taiwan. And without giving me a chance to talk throughout the whole conversation, she blurted all the way saying i took $$ from my parents to go USA, to go hk, then now to taiwan. But the truth is, the USA expenses a lot came from my savings. The trip was jus nice after my IA, so I had some allowance. And i also took a 3k study loan from the school. That will be paid by ME after i graduated from NTU. The hk trip was paid by myself also, and its a very budgeted trip. This taiwan trip was also from my savings and part of my angbao $$. So, every1 out there .. do learn some lesson here .. NEVER assume things that you DONT see. And also because of this trip, this is the 1st time i scolded some1 over my MSN nick which is actually 1 of my relative. Hiazz ... I've learnt my lesson too ... only trust ur direct family members, they know you the best, and their love for u is really unconditioned, so Pa and Ma, i really love you!! But anyway, Aunt, I had always respected you, and stil respect u now. I know u're my mum's elder sis, u love her so you think you should stand out and reprimand me .. but what u see is jus the interface .. and to my dear grandma in heaven, I'm so sorry tat i cursed LKS through msn, but i'm really angry for what he said and wat his mum said too. I know you'll b very sad seeing this .. so i'm really sorry.

This is really a bad week i think .. all the datelines for reports and assignment. Finally on monday, i threw a burden away!! FYP draft report submitted .. been slogging over it almost the whole of last week and its finally completed. And it spent me $50+ to print 2 copies!! Hiazz ... hope I dont need to print the ammended in color again .. if not its another $50+ ... goodness ... And now these few days fr FYP report switch to assignment. Comp graphics assignment due-ing. I've built my room, done the morphing which is not very smooth, now left the implicit function. I'll jus leave it to tomorrow ba.

I heard another bad news today also. Vicky had passed away. Hiazz .. so sad, but i think she really lived out to the fullest of a doggie's life liao, 18 years old, had a loving family, taking care of her so well. Do rest in peace.

Hmm ... tink my mood now is very complicated .. so much things piling up in me. hope after this blog post, i'll feel better after trashing all the feelings n thoughts out, if not i thing volcano is gonna erupt soon. Think its the 1st time i'm really showing out so much emotion in my post.
爱真的需要勇气 只要你一个眼神肯定 我的爱就有意义 如果我的坚强任性 会不小心伤害了你 你能不能温柔提醒 我虽然心太急更害怕错过你
This is in my MSN nick now. Its been in my mind recently. Like what i told 1 of my jie mei this afternoon on msn, will history gonna repeat itself? I hope the bad part will not. Will it turn better or worst .. i really dunno. Will everything end, or is there going to be a start? Should I just throw everyting away and get it over? Can I? I REALLY DUNNO!!!

Hiazz .. if only all the troubles will be gone after i woke up from my beauty sleep tml morning .. but well .. i tink i gotta face the reality and go on well in life. Just hope that I have a great day or week waiting for me in front, and my troubles will be solved asap .. Good night!