Some thoughts ... ...

Within weeks, so many things had happen. Was quite overwhelmed by so many things that initially i thought i'll just break down. But i did manage to pull through.

1st week of work, though familiar environment, familiar faces, but I still need some time to get use to the culture i tink... so diff being a student there and as a perm staff. Everything drop like bombs.. but well, hope i manage to gain good experiences and my days working there are gonna be smooth.

4th july nite, or can say 5th morning, Curly left us. Til now every thought of her made me want to drop tears. Everyday i reach home, seems like i still can smell her doggie scent, and everyday when i wanna leave house, I still have the habit of wanting to close my room door(my mum dun allow curly up our beds, so all room doors are to be close when we going out). Even though there is no longer sights of her pillow, biscuit box, bowl, towel etc .. she is stil always in my mind. My dear darling for 11+ years...

People tell me that if they were in my shoe, they'll be super angry .. well, i aint really angry, jus feel real sad. Jus feel like a sudden lost, someting that i've been thinking tat is special, suddenly turn out to be not so special actually.. Always wondering whether I'm asking for too much, but i jus cant help tinking tat trust is very impt in a relationship. Not sure what impact this issue had on my jiemei or my dear, but really big on me, esp when so many bad tings had been happening ard me recently.. tats y i said i tot i would jus break down. But i manage to control myself. Frances said she saw the change in me. Is it good or bad i not sure. But i really do treasure this relationship a lot, esp after what happened 1yr ago, this is something i tink really need to be treasured. Thinking back, I did realise a major change in myself, being the only child, always a independant gal, i've grown to become dependant on my dear, which i really fear that if this pillar disappear, will i be able to stand back on my own again? So i treasured even more. But anyway, everything seems to be going on smoothly now, and hope it'll continue to be. Hope the 'trust' will be back soon. and this incident wil disappear from our mind soon.

The earth is still turning, life still got to be going on, memories that'll remain in heart forever .. and some that'll be disppearing when time goes on. So every1, treasure everything, and live life to the fullest! Tomorrow will be a better day.